August 1947, Pakistan was created for its citizens both men and women as a state where they would live free of discrimination and deprivation, as stated by the newly born constitution proposals of Article 25 and 34. Its founding leaders strove for equality for both men and women in all spheres, but soon after this nation fell into the hands of corrupt politicians and dictators obsessed with a harsh view of Islam.
As a faith community, we are facing a serious crisis in human (and God given) rights violations. Many of those “in charge” are and have been misusing religious texts to cripple more than half of our population- women.
We are a global community and these issues have infected our lives on a global scale. Because of these issues, Saadia Haq and I are “Excavating Shariah” in an attempt to chip away at the fiqh interpretations (human understanding of the Shariah (Islamic) law) that have either intentionally or unintentionally ignored the female experience, oppressed women, or co-opted women’s religious dedication.
Recently, we lost a sister. Page Spence converted to Islam two short years ago. And in that time, as she tried to find her footing in faith, she was marginalized and judged. Page was born on November 12, 1977 and passed away on Wednesday, April 22, 2015.
The circumstances of her death were preventable. But we will not talk about how she died here. We will talk about how she lived and what she went through as a reminder to all of us, to be kind to one another. A reminder that there is no room for harshness and faith in the same heart.
I never met Page, but her story moved me deeply as I read about her life and her loss. Her friend, Melissa Chance Yassini, puts is all into perspective.
Written by Melissa Chance Yassini
Melissa Chance Yassini
April 23, 1015: As everyone else was sharing their pics taken with our Sister, Page, I decided to share mine as well. This is a pic of me and Page. You don’t see her? Look again. Look close. There she is … Right there … In all of my insecurities.
She is in all of us. Am I good enough? Do I do enough? Is my hair showing? Are they laughing at me? Are they talking about me? Am I Muslim enough? Am I too fat? Am I ugly? Do they like me? Do they accept me?
In her name, in her honor. Stop shaming yourself and each other. Starting now.”
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I have to say this… It needs to be said. I have had so many people ask me how Page Spence died. What happened? Who was she? What happened between her and her husband? I understand that it is our nature to be curious. I get that.
But does it matter, really? Page was our Sister. Page was someone who never felt accepted by us as a whole. Page never felt like we approved, like she was part of the gang. She struggled. She was given to us, as a gift. As a test. And we failed.
We own that. We must own that. Rather than worrying about how she died, what happened in her marriage, all her info, fighting for her body. Let her rest in peace. Pray for her. Pray for yourself. Ask Allah to make you better.
Ask Him to help you be a better friend, to be more available, to not judge, to not bully, to be easy, and open, and loving, and kind, and giving, and all the things she was. Was she perfect? No. Am I? No.
Her time here is over. She is gone. We still have to keep going. We have to do better. We are all one Ummah, one family. Don’t make that just words you say … BE ABOUT IT! Live it. Prove it.
May 6, 2015:
They say people come into your life for a reason and I often find that to be true. I cannot recall exactly how I came to know Page, I cannot pin point exactly how we met or where. One day, she was just there.
She was placed in my life at the perfect time, in the midst of personal turmoil. In one of our very first encounters, she and I had a conversation that felt like we had been friends for years. It was then that our friendship was sealed.
Page was a woman of profound beauty, inside and out. She had the face of an angel, with a smile that welcomed every person she encountered. She was always smiling, always laughing, always making others laugh.
She was the life of the party. Page never met a stranger and she never made you feel unwelcome. A lover of people (especially children) and animals, she went out of her way to make everyone around her feel loved, and important and special. Page had a beautiful and contagious spirit about her.
She was always helping, always advising, always offering support and encouragement. There was never a single time I called on her and she was not there. My first experience with her all the way to my last was one of absolute pleasure. I cannot recall a single incident of indifference between us.
In her memory, I plan to honor her by continuing on her legacy of friendship and acceptance. I plan to take life by storm as she did and not get in my own way. I plan to love fully, praise loudly, smile often. I plan to belly laugh and take selfies with my friends and enjoy dessert after EVERY meal. I plan to be a shoulder to lean on, an ear that listens and a hand to hold.
I plan to embrace every newcomer to my life and respect them and treat them as if they have always been there. I plan to help wherever I can and to inspire others to do the same. I plan to take care of animals and raise awareness to causes that benefit them. I plan to enjoy every single second of being a Mom, a gift she was never granted.
Thank you Page, for your friendship and for your kindness. Thank you for being such a beautiful example of all that I have mentioned above.
Just as she blew into my life, she left it much the same way … unexpected … unannounced. There one day and gone the next. Gone, but never forgotten.
Love you Page!
Inna lillaahi wa inna ilayhi Raaji’oon. To Allah we belong and to Him is our return.
Melissa is a Dallas, Tx native who converted to Islam 20 years ago. She is the proud mama to one gorgeous daughter. Melissa still calls Dallas home and in her community she is an active fund-raiser and Girl Scout troop leader, and an awesome sister to all she comes across.
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If you were tuned in last week for the Talking in Memphis post, you might be wondering where the video of my talk “An Open Invitation to Understanding Islam and the Muslims” is. It is not ready yet, but will be soon, inshaAllah.
This week I want invite you to my reading nook. It is a special place where I spend most of my days, chillin out, maxin’ … oh, er, sorry. I fell into a Fresh Prince reference. Eh hem. In my reading nook, I recently devoured a very important book called Exploring Prejudice by Amy Guimond.
On July the fourth of this year, I had the honor and pleasure of Skyping (Or maybe it was on Google Hangout. Can’t remember.) with an amazing woman named Amy Guimond. Even though we were miles apart, of different faiths, and she’s a runner (ewWWWwww), we came to realize we have so, so much in common.
We came to know of each other through Amy’s research. She was, at the time, working toward a PhD in Conflict Resolution, specifically exploring the topic: Understanding the Experiences of Caucasian, Female Americans Who Have Converted to Islam in Post-9/11 America. She’s, like, super smart.
I, fitting nicely into her demographic, agreed to share my experience with her. How could I not!? It’s what I do. Today, Amy goes by the title Doctor, and I could not be more proud of her. Nor could I be more touched by her work that exposes the injustices and hardship that people like me face in this society.
As we chatted on that day in July, Amy told me about how she, as a Jewish women, came to this field of study. She said that as a Master’s student she conducted a social experiment where she put on a hijab for one month (and niqab for a hot minute) to experience what life is like for Muslim woman who choose to cover in America.
She suffered, struggled, was bullied and abused (emotionally and sexually) to show the world what it is like to experience prejudice. Her book, Exploring Prejudice, is the detailed account of that experiment. And her YouTube channel, exploringprejudice, chronicles her experiences day by day.
After our first encounter where she told me about her book, I went straight to Amazon.com to purchase it. It came in the mail and then started collecting dust on my bookshelf.
I had fallen into a deep depression after reading the rough draft of her dissertation. In her research, she discusses the steps societies take from hate to genocide and how far along the path the U.S. is in their anti-Muslim hate.
I couldn’t handle it. Every fear I had was realized in her dissertation. And so her book about the hijab experiment collected dust.
I didn’t feel like I could handle looking at the ugliness in the world any more, especially if it was happening to someone I couldn’t protect (in this case, her in the past, and other hijabi women presently).
When it happens to me, I can squash it in my mind vice. When I hear of injustice happening to others, I lose it. And I didn’t feel like I had enough of “it” to spare losing any more. And so the dust collected.
I brought the book with me to coffee shops, intending to read it after I met deadlines. I packed it on trips across country with intentions to pour over the pages in transit. It moved from purse to bag in a seemingly endless cycle of good intentions and despair.
That was until I sat down and had a good talking to myself about not being a cry baby and throwing pity parties. I kicked myself in the pants, decided to stop being pathetic, to keep on trying to build bridges, and to trust in God to take care of the situation.
And I finally read Amy’s book.
I was shocked by how familiar I was with her experiences. I knew her encounters would be similar to mine, but I had no idea that people would say, verbatim, to her what they say/have said to me.
I didn’t realize she would describe in so much detail the frustration and heartache I feel when encountering ignorance. I recognized the language of hate perfect strangers spewed at her. And wondered if these same strangers had copied and pasted their words into messages sent to me.
I felt the same liberation and femininity when wearing hijab for the first time. I made all the same realizations she made as people actually looked her in the eyes as she spoke while wearing hijab.
I am amazed by all that Amy went through and learned just to stand up for women with whom she doesn’t even share a faith. Just to understand life from someone else’s perspective. All people who feel othered, oppressed, or profiled owe a debt of gratitude to this amazing women for exposing social evils that exist to this day in our “post racist” (rolls eyes) society.
Amy says time and time again in her book and on her vlog that she feels like she is just preaching to the choir. I often find myself feeling the same way. I wonder if people who feel hatred toward Muslims will even come to my blog, leaving confirmation bias behind, and take to heart what I say. I wonder if my words will ever reach people who need them the most. Who knows? We can only do our part and leave the rest to God.
But YOU can do something to get the word outside of the choir. Buy Amy’s book, read it, gift it to someone you know who harbours hatred in their hearts. Forward her vlog posts to someone who might be touched by them. If she can be brave enough to stand up for others, we can be brave enough to pass it on.
Amy’s work is the religious version of “Black Like Me”– another MUST read. And like John Howard Griffin’s work, it can have an amazing impact on our culture … if it gets the attention it deserves.
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New Orleans is awesome, but Memphis is giving the “Big Easy” a run for her money.
Written by Theresa Corbin
A couple of weeks ago, I gave a talk inviting people to understand Islam and the Muslims in Memphis, TN. I had many fears before going to Tennessee. Having read about anti-Muslim sentiment inMurfreesboro, TN, I fully expected to be shot.
I went anyway. And instead of hostility, I found the Memphian community full of interfaith camaraderie. I found Muslims working hard to enrich their community and create an atmosphere that fosters understanding and cooperation. I found warm and welcoming non-Muslims who greeted their Muslim neighbours- and me!- with big smiles and kindness.
My experience in this amazing community has enriched my life (and my waistline. Their BBQ ain’t no joke) in so many ways I cannot even begin to explain.
In order to raise awareness about my talk, I had the opportunity to speak about my topic in interviews on TV and radio.
* Hajar’s son’s name wasIshmael (Peace and blessings be upon him).
**please note that Sarah was not the one who made Abraham leave Hajar in the desert of Mecca. This was a directive from God. I just learned this and feel embarrassed that I let my former Christian understanding of the story — that can be very misogynistic (Eve responsible for the first sin. Not true in Islam)– shape my attitude toward Sarah. 😦
I hope to post the video of my talk “An Open Invitation to Understanding Islam and the Muslims” next week. So stay tuned!
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